In recent years, I've come to realize the most formative event in my life occurred when I was three years old. My parents took us kids out on a walk, and for reasons that aren't clear to me, we didn't take the dog alone. My parents put him out on the deck so he could get fresh air, but kept him on a leash tied to the deck so he wouldn't run off and get lost. When we got back an hour later, I ran ahead to the house and discovered the body of our dog hanging from the deck. He had jumped over the railing to follow us and accidentally hung himself on his leash.
This would have been a traumatic experience for any child. I'm certain that if my parents had found the body first, they would have tidied things up a bit and told me a good lie to lessen the blow of what actually happened. But I found him first, and the memory is firmly etched in my mind. As my three year old mind tried to make sense of the situation, I was confronted by an overwhelming sense of loss and waste. I wasn't just sad that my dog had died. I was particularly hurt by how needless the death had been. If my parents had taken my dog along, left him in the house, or tied him to a low post on the deck staircase, none of this would have happened. I didn't blame my parents for not thinking of this. It was just an unlucky situation that could easily have been avoided.
I didn't recognize it until decades later, but that experience framed the rest of my life. It wasn't framed with an objective or a rationale, but with an emotion:
I despise waste.
I've lived my entire life in a constant struggle against inefficiencies and minimizing potential risks. I work hard to prevent problems before they occur. For example, when I get out of any car and shut the door, I always try the handle to make sure the door is locked. I always check that I bring my wallet with me when I take my keys and vice versa. If I have to be somewhere in an hour and it will take forty minutes to get there (including the margin of error), I find something to do for exactly twenty minutes.
I think this is why I was attracted to computer programming as a profession, and why I'm so good at it. Good programming means you can teach a computer to do menial tasks that would otherwise cost a human lots of time. I'm anal about error checking and commenting in my code because I absolutely do not want things to go wrong. Carefulness has become a way of life for me, so "clean" programming is second nature. Many programmers complain that writing good code takes a lot more time than sloppy code, but I don't agree. I've been writing good code so long that it's actually faster than writing "bad code".
As the story left off last week, I had finished writing the most impressive homing missiles ever. And for game balance reasons, I couldn't use the work the way I wanted to. Obviously this pushed my buttons about wasting time and effort, so I designed a Quake 3 game modification (aka "mod") using the homing missiles. Thus Seeker Quake was born. As this was released over eight years ago, it's a bit hard to find sites where you can download it, but I believe it's still available from this site.
The PlanetQuake article does a good job of summarizing the game, but here's the basic gist. Each player starts with a rocket launcher and gets one seeker shot active at any point in time. When you shoot, it selects a random person with higher score than you and mercilessly tracks them down. They can try to outrun it, but they absolutely cannot hide from the seeker. While your seeker is active, all other rocket shots act like normal rockets. And of course, you can use any other weapon available on the level too.
It's a pretty simple twist but it has a really interesting effect on game balance. I tried games with four to eight players on it of varying skills. On a typical level with a point limit of 20, the scores would probably range anywhere from -2 to 20. But in Seeker Quake, final scores were generally in the 13 to 20 range. The best player still pretty much always won and the worst player always lost, but the range was much tighter. Seekers act as handicapping mechanic, as the best player got targeted with a lot more seekers. He has to work harder to maintain his edge. Meanwhile, the worst players on the level have almost no seekers targeting them, so they have more time to catch up.
Here's the bottom line: When a bunch of players with widely varying skill play Seeker Quake, everyone has a good time and everyone is challenged relative to skill. The game is a total blast.
My life hasn't been all cupcakes and roses. But I've worked hard to turn bad situations into good ones. I'm glad I've taken the time to do so.